hopeunashamed

i have decided that i prefer happy endings. the unfortunate thing is that the world is short on happy endings.

after watching the movie atonement i reached this conclusion. i also decided that i wish there was a rewind button on life. just made a bad decision that will negatively affect the rest of my life? no problem! just rewind a bit.

somehow while that sounds appealing at first glance... i wonder why it seems someone wrong to me? maybe it is a little like this other movie i watched lately eternal sunshine of the spotless mind--in which two lovers decide to erase memories of eachother. the final idea is that even if memories really suck that somehow we can't help wanting them and it takes away a piece of us if we don't have them.

somehow i feel like we wouldn't be ourselves if we didn't have cracks in our perfection, mistakes, redemption, atonement. in keeping with the movie connections it would be a bit stepford wives-ish.

this may require more thought.